告別二十五歲

因為逃避遺憾與無奈
為了忘記憤怒和痛苦
我迷失在四面牆壁中

在漩渦低裡自殘
問號與記憶交戰
墮落於幻象之間

一個人，一瞬間，一發不可收拾
不計晝夜，不想面對，不再想你
忘了生命，忘了呼吸，忘了自己
為的只是尋找思緒中的風平浪靜
最後換來的卻是兩年的光陰蹉跎

回憶逐步遠離
帶著不滅傷痕
再繼續走下去
告別二十五歲

Nashville, TN

Distance

You heard my voice
You guessed my name
It was despondent
It has changed
 
I grasped your words
I recalled your face
They were wonted
It was vague
 
My saddened thought
Your indifferent shrug
My inane desire
For your distant love

Nashville, TN

 

Have I been mugged?!...

A couple of days ago, I went to a laundromat for the first time in my life. I never thought I would go to a laundromat simply because I had always stayed at somewhere with a laundry room, a washing machine or laundry service up until now. To be fair, Radisson, where I'm staying at the moment, does have laundry service. But who would pay $2.50 to wash a pair of socks? I am not cheap, but I do have a lot of socks. So my friend, Eric, and I decided to do our laundry at a local laundromat, which turned out to be not so local. We took 3 different freeways to get to another middle-of-nowhere, and mysteriously there's a laundromat. 

So at this point, you might think that I would have brought quarters with me, right? No, I didn't. I don't carry coins, remember? Eric came well prepared with loads of quarters, but he had got a whole lot more stuff to wash. So I thought I would use the change machine to get some vital quarters. I didn't think that was a problem since it was a laundromat, so there must be a change machine. I was wrong; there were two change machines. So I picked one. Those who know me well know I suck at multiple choice and true/false questions. And there's no exception this time. I took out a $10, and put it right into the carefully selected change machine. I thought nothing could go wrong. But it did. It didn't give me any quarters, and gave me $5 back. Not a regular $5 as you would think though; it's this ->

I was looking at the half of a ten the machine gave back to me for 5 seconds, and I was speechless. Then I asked forcefully "really?!" Eric looked at me and tried to figure out what's going on. He saw the "$5" I was holding in my hand and the face I was making, he laughed.

"Have I just been mugged?!" I asked. 

"Yea, I think so," said Eric.

Nashville, TN

I should've stayed in LA with him

I shouldn't have come to Reno.

Reno, NV

Update:

I got a surprisingly important call from Kai at the airport when I was boarding the plane back to LA. He said that the LA Animal Services called him and told him that they found Lucas in the neighborhood where he was last seen. I called the department of animal services immediately, and the news was confirmed. On the phone, the officer asked me, "do you wanna come and get him back?" I said, "I spent $2000 to find him, so yea, I am flying back to LA to pick him up. And he's grounded forever."

Follow-up:

Lucas is now in Texas with Kai. He has lost a lot of weight; he has a small body with a big head - a combination of the two of us.

At the airport, everybody loved Lucas, including the TSA.

Left: Lucas in flight  Right: Lucas sleeping on/with his mom, Kai

放手

捨不得落日的餘暉，忘不了燦爛過的痕跡，放不開逝去了的夢想，在那離不開的路口徘徊，癡想我的執著能留住昨天。從不甘到不捨、從不願放棄到不想糾纏，你與我都因為那個他失去了太多。當記憶寫成了文字、當感覺變得模糊、當對錯不再重要、當心已倦了，原來那年已是那麼遠。那改變不了的、拋不開的、得不到的、走不進的、留不住的，請放手，讓我走。願我們終有一天能找到各自的自由。

Alexandria Ave, CA